My Forever Friend

The year that Todd and I got married, we adopted our golden retreiver, Bryce. He was two years old when we adopted him. He is the greatest pet I could ever imagine having. He is loyal, sweet, and affectionate. I can't imagine not having him around. Since we haven't had any children yet, he has become our child. While we were going our fertility treatments, he was always so loyal. I remmber laying the couch crying about having another failed pregnancy and Bryce jumping on the couch laying his head on my stomach and staring at me with sad eyes. When I talk to Bryce, he look at me and moves his head from side to side. I just knows he is listening. I try not to think about the time when he is not around. I will be heartbroken. I can't wait for him to meet Sarah. He is so good with children. I just love, love him!

Waiting....

Last week I had a hard time dealing with the wait. When we began our adoption process, the wait was about 6-9 months and now the wait is two years. Adoptive families that received referrals this month from China have waited two years. Waiting is so difficult. There are times that I am okay with the wait and othere times it is so heartbreaking. One day last week, after talking with our adoption coordinator, I just cried and cried. Our adoption coordinator, Tina, is wonderful, but unfortunately she has no control over when we will recieve our referral. I was just thinking last night of how much time we spend in life just waiting. I know that God has the perfect child picked out for us and I just need to believe in that, but it is so hard sometimes. I think of the family and friends in our life that have children and I know that they would wait forever for their children because they love them so much and know that they belong in their family. So, I am going to sit and wait for the child God has designed for us. It feels strange at times, but I love that little one so much, yet I have never seen her sweet little face.